You see, in recent months my work has gone through a series of fairly significant changes: new ownership, new offices, the departure of some of my favorite people.
All had been good. I was doing ok. Really.
Then last week happened. Last week I didn't do ok.
Last week, in fact, I felt like I sucked balls. You see I was to deliver my first reputation audit. I have helped out with them in the past, but had yet to lead one. I was both excited and nervous.
And I totally underestimated all the things I didn't know. Well, that may not be true. I think I underestimated the things that weren't intuitive to me.
Since the start of my career in public relations, most things have come somewhat intuitively, which is how I knew I found my niche. But last week, nothing I did was right. I didn't ask for help when I should have, I didn't send the report to edits early enough, I didn't look at the data from the right angle.
Obviously I didn't do a lot of things right.
I was doubting everything. As per usual. But as Sarin said, "This is your first time writing a report like this. You will learn and do better next time."
Things I have learned because of this debacle:
- While I am good at my job, I am not perfect. I must remember to ask for help. Even when I don't want to.
- There are some things that are beyond my expertise, right now.
- Bring in extra eyes, they can save so much stress.
- Look at the data from all angles. Don't assume anything.
- Carefully review previous examples of similar work. I put the emphasis on CAREFULLY. Sometimes, because of the environment I work in, I skip the carefully and run through everything. No matter how much other shit I have on my plate, I have to start dedicating time to preparing for the new projects that will come up. Well, new to me.
- Regan Lal is an amazing resource and I miss her dearly. She is my co-worker who had a baby and abandoned me. I miss her all the time for many things other than her big brain, but last week I missed her guidance, patience and ability to walk me through things that I need to know.
Now you know why I turned everything off.