Tip of the week

I really love Bon Iver. My old cubie let me rip For Emma, Forever Ago a couple of years ago and I've been hooked since.

Skinny Love was one of three break-up songs when P3 and I were done. It breaks my heart every time I hear 'skinny love just last a year' - god do you want those non-forever relationships to just make it a little longer.

The music is mellow, there's no denying it, but it is so good. In fact, they're so good, I've listened to the albums (at work) a total of 145 times.

Blood Bank is a short four songs, but each will make you ache and wish they had included just one more.

So there's my tip of the week. Bon Iver. Go, enjoy. You can thank me later. I've already thanked Adam, many times.

Oh won't you come on over

And I think of all the things,
What you're doing,
And in my head I paint a picture.

Well since I come home,
Well my body's been a mess,
And I miss your tender hair,
And the way you like to dress.

You're my motorcycle mama

Think of me as a helping hand, nothing more nothing less than that
We could sing all your hardships away
You deserve the best, you should expect nothing less
We could live in bliss, if you just say yes
On a night like this, life can change with a kiss

What I want

I'm getting a little sad.

Several months ago I returned from Europe with a spring in my step and hope in my pocket.

I sit here today with very little of either. I have lost the hope and I have lost the spring. And it makes me so sad.

The reason for the hope is starting to distance himself - as he should. It has been more than a year since we originally met. More than a year of being 8333km away from one another. More than a year of thinking about him and wishing with every little piece of me that this boy I met lived just a few time zones closer to me.

But alas he doesn't.

When I came back from Switzerland I thought there was a chance of him coming to visit before next year. I thought I had left enough of an impression on him that he would take a risk and fly across the world. Of course he didn't - how silly was I to even think that?

Pretty silly.

The earliest he may come here is March 2011. That would make it a year since I was in Switzerland. It's already been months without a decent date. And for all I know he is dating many women, or heck, maybe the reason for the distancing is that he found an actual girlfriend. Like I'd mentioned before, he's too cute to stay single for much longer.

I'm too scared to ask though. Too scared that he has had enough sense to move on, when I have not. Too scared to find out that I'm not worth waiting for, when I believed (and still do) that he is worth waiting for.

sucks.